ropes Weakness.

We all have it…. but rarely like to discuss it. Like boogers. Or sex.

Having weakness isn’t something to be ashamed of, it’s part of what makes us human. How cliché… but true. Without weakness there would be no vulnerability or challenge to change or improve. Could you imagine a life without the need or desire for improvement? I sure can’t.

Maybe it’s just the root of the word that doesn’t sit well with me. ‘WEAK’. Like, not strong… flimsy or unstable. The strongest, most powerful and successful people in the world have weaknesses..they just don’t necessarily broadcast them (since they would most likely be publicly hung out to dry – shame on us judgemental public), or they find a way to spin them into an ‘Opportunity for Change’…  but they have them.

I have spent the last 3-4 years learning to identify my ‘Opportunities for Change’. I don’t necessarily embrace them (not yet anyhow). I mean, who wants to embrace ‘inability to stand up for yourself’ or ‘cares too much what people think’? – my mouth feels sour just typing the phrases let alone identifying with them. I am learning to live in harmony with my weaknesses while I figure out how to unravel myself from the ropes of self-doubt and insecurity that they have loosely noosed around my neck (sorry to be so dramatic but sometimes it does feel suffocating). I know it’s going to be a long process – a lifetime of baggage cannot be so easily sorted and unpacked in one day.

I know it’s going to be a long process – a lifetime of baggage cannot be so easily sorted and unpacked in one day.

And now here I am. I’ve popped open the suitcase and now stand in awe at the crap-load of stuff I’ve accumulated over the years (and I’m only 28) and how perfectly I’ve managed to fold, tuck and hide it all away with no one the wiser as to just what’s inside. I’m ready to start addressing the things I’ve swept under the rug – including my weaknesses. Will I embrace them or hang them out to dry? It’s too early to say. But I’m so excited by the Opportunity to Change and the fact that I have all of the power and will to do so now (and that, my friends, is a strength).

P.S. As an aside, I would just like to say that anyone who ever wrote ‘I’m a perfectionist’ as a weakness for a job application/interview was totally full of crap. But don’t worry… I pulled that too.